22 October 2009

random thoughts with no conclusion.

Jealousy is gross. To be jealous of others- to want what they have- is wrong. There is nothing flattering about jealousy, and can lead to disastrous consequences. However, it's a fact of life in this sinful world we live in. What do you do with it? Many people have found peace and happiness in the things they have been given and what they have in their lives; others go through life always wanting more, always looking at others things and wanting it for themselves. In essence, comparing themselves to the "Jones.'" What do you do when you find yourself jealous of someone? Of possessions they have or a life they lead that is not your own? How do you handle it?
The best option, of course, is to view your life and be thankful for what you do have. Recently, I have been faced with a situation where I am jealous of others: the direction of their life, how comfortable they appear in their world and how everything just seems to 'fall into place' for them.
While on the million-mile drive across the country with Jesse and his parents, the mother-in-law and I got to talking about this topic. She shared how throughout her marriage, she always felt other people had "more," specifically in the financial aspect. However, she was also able to view her life and see what SHE had that others didn't. This brought me hope, knowing I wasn't the only one who struggled with such feelings and emotions.
Even if you look at the life of someone else and want something they have..what do you have that they don't?

05 October 2009

where the sidewalk ends..

Life is funny.
What are you supposed to do when you don't know what to do? When all that you thought you knew is challenged? When the people who you always assumed would be by your side are nowhere to be found? When life hits you again and again and you feel like giving up?
I wish I had answers. While I'm wishing, I also wish it was easy to continually sacrifice things I think that I want to make the most important person in my life happier and at ease. Sacrificing my old personal goals to come up with new goals that fit better isn't easy either.
What are you to do when you know the end goals but see the timing and road to the goals differently?
Just wondering..
"Yes we'll walk with a walk that is measured and slow,
And we'll go where the chalk-white arrows go,
For the children, they mark, and the children, they know
The place where the sidewalk ends."
--Shel Silverstein